wednesday night procrastination.

I should be packing or working, but I'm not. I would just like to say I smell myself. If that doesn't make you want to read more... I don't know what will! I've been to language class today, worked in my hot room and went to the market. I need a shower! Actually we have what we call 'the contest' in our household. Originally it was designed because we were having EXTREME water problems and were being very frugal. So the one who went the longest without showering "won." I'm not telling when I "won" last.

This week has flown by. I am leaving for London Friday to take a course for editing software. I hope it's a good course, because it's expensive and London itself isn't cheap.

As i completed the Mozley's ministry documentary I wanted imovie (the current software program I'm using) to do things it wouldn't do and I know final cut pro can do it, I just don't know how to make it do what I want it to do.. So we'll see. I didn't know about going at first because it's before I've lived in my host country a year, and from others' experience living cross culturally it's not good to leave within the first year. However the doors kept opening and I think this is where I'm supposed to go.

Sometimes in conversation with Daddy I don't hear his voice clearly. Maybe it's because I don't want to, maybe I'm talking too much or maybe He's letting me make a decision to let me walk it out and learn. I do know that He woke me up Sunday night and put some stuff on my heart to be praying about.

I'm studying Daniel right now from a Beth Moore bible study. We're talking about Babylon as a mentality. What are our idols that we spend too much time and energy worshiping? TV, magazines, movies, pampering ourselves, books, thinking good or bad of ourselves and focusinig too much on 'me"...the list goes on and on. It's easy in our culture, and even though I don't live in America right now I'm still American at the core and battle that desire of self indulgence. I think it's taught to us from birth and the older we get the more our school and career say, "it's about me getting to the top." But Daniel stood apart. He didn't even give in when the head hauncho of the day was pressuring him. How do we stand apart, yet love others in a non condescending way? I'm really praying about this as I am going to visit an area of London full of "me" babylon mentalities. I have to admit I'm guilty of self indulging gratification just as much as the next human...that's when I say thank you God for continuining to change my heart. beautiful grace.